31108 + 31109 = 1

On 3rd November 2008, i joined an advertising company and today is my 365th day there. never thought that i'll be in the same company for a year because of some reasons. but i guess its because of my awesome colleagues. i love them and i miss some of them who already left... and i'm gonna miss those who's gonna leave soon...

Down

I was feeling down the whole week but i tried to cover it up.. coz i don't wanna whine so much bout things that actually is not a big deal. Its just that i'm taking my time to get over it. So many questions pop up in my head and i can't stop asking why.. whenever i felt tears coming out, i hold back and remind my self not to cry over small matters. Trying to stay positive alone is unbearable.

Sometimes i feel like sharing this with a friend, but thinking that no one would actually understand how it feels, so i kept it to myself. The problem is ME. I am the one who restrict myself. I am the one who gets on my way and I let these things happen to me. I know what i should do, i know the solutions but i don't know how to solve it. Or more to say, i just don't have the confidence.

But today, i think i have found the answer to my questions. I guess i was a bit arrogant to think that, everything should be like i want it to be. I've forgotten my ground...and it's time to reflect.

Oh?

I'm bored with Facebook and Twitter at the moment..

erm..thats why...i blog. (surprise?)

weird, but currently addicted to catchy-lovey-dovey-sleepy songs like;

Till It Happens To You - Corinne Bailey Rae

Be Still My Heart - Silje Nergaard

Heartbeat - Annie

C'Mon Through - Lasse Lindh

In A Manner Of Speaking - Nouvelle Vague

Don't Turn Away - Peking Laundry

hmm.

I'm not a blogger.

Seriously, i'm not.

A friend encouraged me to blog and i did. But it doesn't last long. I deleted everything then i start over again. And again..and again. Then i really stopped blogging for 2 years i guess. It was interesting though, to blog about things that cheer you up or break you down. But I just couldn't give my full commitment to blogging.

oh, i post this thing here, coz i just feel like doing other thing than facebooking or tweeting. =P

FYI, i just deleted my previous posts. so this is the new one lah. We'll see when will the next post appear. ^^